Category: miscarriage

• January 10, 2024

  Stars

  For the first time in 5 pregnancies, 4 of which have ended in miscarriage, I receive some answers. The peace that descends is unexpected. The power of knowledge to help us accept and heal is clear.
• November 29, 2023

  The good things

  There is an impending void when my daughter starts school next year. What I thought would be filled with another baby needs to be filled with something else. Instead of a void, I see possibility, opportunity, potential.
• October 17, 2023

  A ghost in both worlds

  The conversation trap  I find myself at a birthday party in the middle of a conversation  concerning a couple’s second pregnancy. They have recently found out that they are having another boy. With little to offer to the conversation I sit quietly, hoping I will eventually evaporate, or a natural opportunity to stand up and…
• August 24, 2023

  A love letter

  This is a love letter to the baby who never was, whose existence is confined to these words and my memory. For the little ones who never came home.
• August 1, 2023

  Numbers

  If you’re dealing with fertility and miscarriage the chances are you’ll have a lot of numbers and statistics thrown at you. Here are some of mine.
• July 6, 2023

  The tangled web

  The 12 week rule leaves many of us stranded when fate conspires against us. With no pregnancy to announce, we find ourselves battling between sharing our sad truth or keeping it hidden. But what about the white lies you might already have told?
• June 27, 2023

  Events

  I try to manage my rage and distress while managing the physical side of a miscarriage.
• June 21, 2023

  Perspective

  While this blog is largely about my all-consuming distress around pregnancy loss, I know there are worse things happening in the world. This just happens to be the worst thing happening in my world right now.
• June 17, 2023

  Denial

  Managing a miscarriage when there is so little guidance or support is traumatic and grisly. With hormones raging and my heart breaking I try to explain how badly I handled this one.
• June 17, 2023

  How it ends

  A scan once more with all the fears it presents for someone so used to them being the portent for bad news.